OF A GOLDEN AGE

the phone makes me very uncertain; it taps into my insecurity and fear of liking people more than they like me. this is manifested in my near-crippling fear of calling people instead of waiting for them to call me, which is what i almost always choose to do. it’s nothing personal and i am only just realizing how prevalent it is in my friendships, how unfair to my friends that i so rarely pick up the fucking phone and call them first. such a passive way to live, such a contrast to the rest of my way of life.

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